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Sehari sebelum tahun berganti. Evaluasi pada smua aspek. Banyak yang udah ku lalui. Tapi tidak banyak yang teringat. Januari - Desember. Beberapa kejadian masih ku ingat. Itu pun yang belum lama berselang.

New thought, new fault, new friends, new job, new experience, new mind, new colour, new stuff, new sight. New, new and new. Some new not always be fun, a lot of lost is always be part of it. Some missing is back to found but some other is true lost.

I am sori for myself if i had a lot of sins. I am sori to everyone fur everything the mistake i had. I am sori gubbye…halah. Trying to be better next year.

To know that everything is ok makes me want to ignore it. I want to uncare with them, but suck i do not have that enough feel to kill. Just to be kind, but un slap, i do have everything to make them call me as a good person. Do i’ve bored with this life? yes, i do. Things going always in that way. I need more some colour with my day. Hack a day to makes me feel better, but its not enough me. I want to be hate. Can someone do that on me? to be feel that we have an enemy. Meet some adventure that insain for an ordinary people. To smack an kick on some human ass, fighting like i am a man. These day feel with peace full day. People goes to say hai to another, like they know each other, like they feel have a good relationship with them. Reverse of that, they just fucked. Some people say, to have love can make peace on everyheart of anger. But i do not have it. I’ve feel it, and i hate it. I have numb with it. I do not trust it.

Nice musik album with a nice rhythm and a nice lyrics too. It is very comfort to hear this song when you dont want to get a too loud rock music, or too soft. I play this often when i feel bored with some other kind of music. I like it bcoz it has a diffirent kind of music, they use a piano and some other instrument that can create a unic sound of music. Here a list song on the Under The Iron Sea Album from Keane and with the lyric too, ;) its an international release album.

Keane Under The Iron Sea Album :
1. “Atlantic” – 4:13
2. “Is It Any Wonder?” – 3:01
3. “Nothing In My Way” – 4:00
4. “Leaving So Soon?” – 3:58
5. “A Bad Dream” – 5:04
6. “Hamburg Song” – 4:37
7. “Put It Behind You” + “The Iron Sea” – 6:33
8. “Crystal Ball” – 3:53
9. “Try Again” – 4:27
10. “Broken Toy” – 6:07
11. “The Frog Prince” – 4:22

Atlantic

I hope all my days
Will be lit by your face
I hope all the years
Will hold tight our promises

I don’t wanna be old and sleep alone
An empty house is not a home
I don’t wanna be old and feel afraid

I don’t wanna be old and sleep alone
An empty house is not a home
I don’t wanna be old and feel afraid

And if I need anything at all

I need a place
That’s hidden in the deep
Where lonely angels sing you to your sleep
Though all the world is broken

I need a place
Where I can make my bed
A lover’s lap where I can lay my head
Cos now the room is spinning
The day’s beginning

Is It Any Wonders

I
I always thought that I knew
I’d always have the right to
Be living in the kingdom of the good and true
And so on
But now I think I was wrong
And you were laughing along
And now I look a fool for thinking you were on, my side

Is it any wonder that I’m tired?
Is it any wonder that I feel uptight?
Is it any wonder I don’t know what’s right?

Sometimes
It’s hard to know where I stand
It’s hard to know where I am
Or maybe it’s a puzzle I don’t understand
Sometimes
I get the feeling that I’m
Stranded in the wrong time
Where love is just a lyric in children’s rhyme, a soundbite

Is it any wonder that I’m tired?
Is it any wonder that I feel uptight?
Is it any wonder I don’t know what’s right
Oh these days?
After all the misery you made
Is it any wonder that I feel afraid?
Is it any wonder that I feel betrayed?

Nothing left beside this old cathedral
Just the sad lonely spires
How do you make it right?

Oh but you try
Is it any wonder that I’m tired?
Is it any wonder that I feel uptight?
Is it any wonder I don’t know what’s right?
Oh these days
After all the misery you made
Is it any wonder that I feel afraid?
Is it any wonder that I feel betrayed?

Nothing In My Way

A turning tide
Lovers at a great divide
why d’you lie
When I know that you hurt inside?

And why’d you say
It’s just another day, nothing in my way
I don’t wanna go, I don’t wanna stay
So there’s nothing left to say?
And why’d you lie
When you wanna die, when you hurt inside
Don’t know what you lie for anyway
Now there’s nothing left to say

A tell-tale sign
You don’t know where to draw the line

And why’d you say
It’s just another day, nothing in my way
I don’t wanna go, I don’t wanna stay
So there’s nothing left to say
And why’d you lie
When you wanna die, when you hurt inside
Don’t know what you lie for anyway
Now there’s nothing left to say

Well for a lonely soul, you’re having such a nice time
For a lonely soul, you’re having such a nice time
For a lonely soul, it seems to me that you’re having such a nicetime
You’re having such a nice time

For a lonely soul, you’re having such a nice time
For a lonely soul, you’re having such a nice time
For a lonely soul, it seems to me that you’re having such a nicetime
You’re having such a nice time

Leaving So Soon

ah, ah ah, ah ah, ah!
ah, ah ah, ah ah, ah!

you must think i’m a fool
so prosaic and awkward and all
d’you think you’ve got me down?
d’you think i’ve never been out of this town?

do i seem too eager to please to you now?
you don’t know me at all
i can’t turn it on, turn it off like you now
i’m not like you now

now you’re here
i bet you’re wishing you could disappear
i’m trying to be kind
i get the feeling you’re just killing time

you look down on me
don’t you look down on me now
you don’t know me at all
a slap in the face
in the face for you now
just might do now

you’re leaving so soon
never had a chance to bloom
but you were so quick
to change your tune
don’t look back
if i’m a weight around your neck
cos if you don’t need me
i don’t need you

ah, ah ah, ah ah, ah!
ah, ah ah, ah ah, ah!

leaving so soon, soon
leaving, leaving so, soon

you’re leaving so soon
never had a chance to bloom
but you were so quick
to change your tune
don’t look back
if i’m a weight around your neck
cos if you don’t need me
then i don’t need you

ah, ah ah, ah ah, ah!

A Bad Dream

Why do I have to fly
over every town up and down the line?
I’ll die in the clouds above
and you that I defend, I do not love.

I wake up, it’s a bad dream,
No one on my side,
I was fighting
But I just feel too tired
to be fighting,
guess I’m not the fighting kind.

Where will I meet my fate?
Baby I’m a man, I was born to hate.
And when will I meet my end?
In a better time you could be my friend.

I wake up, it’s a bad dream,
No one on my side,
I was fighting
But I just feel too tired
to be fighting,
guess I’m not the fighting kind.
Wouldn’t mind it
if you were by my side
But you’re long gone,
yeah you’re long gone now.

Where do we go?
I don’t even know,
My strange old face,
And I’m thinking about those days,
And I’m thinking about those days.

I wake up, it’s a bad dream,
No one on my side,
I was fighting
But I just feel too tired
to be fighting,
guess I’m not the fighting kind.
Wouldn’t mind it
if you were by my side
But you’re long gone,
yeah you’re long gone now.

Hamburg Song

I don’t wanna be adored
Don’t wanna be first in line
Or make myself heard
I’d like to bring a little light
To shine a light on your life
To make you feel loved

No, don’t wanna be the only one you know
I wanna be the place you call home

I lay myself down
To make it so, but you don’t want to know
I give much more
Than I’d ever ask for

Will you see me in the end
Or is it just a waste of time
Trying to be your friend
Just shine, shine, shine
Shine a little light
Shine a light on my life
Warm me up again

Fool, I wonder if you know yourself at all
You know that it could be so simple

I lay myself down
To make it so, but you don’t want to know
You take much more
Than I’d ever ask for

Say a word or two to brighten my day
Do you think that you could see your way

To lay yourself down
And make it so, but you don’t want to know
You take much more
Than I’d ever ask for

Put It Behind You

Times goes by at such a pace
It’s funny how it’s easy to forget her face
You hide the cracks, the facts will find you
Turn your back and leave the lonely days behind you now

You better it put it behind you now
You better it put it behind you now
Too much to hold on, hold on to
You better it put it behind you now

All the things you took for granted
Hit you like a bullet in the gut
You can’t get up
Well are you gonna even try?
Cos if you never even try
Time will pass you by

You better it put it behind you now
You better it put it behind you now
Too much to hold on, hold on to (Hold on, hold on to)
You better it put it behind you now
You better it put it behind you now
Too much to hold on, to hold on to (Hold on, hold on to)
You better do what’s best for you

Don’t care what she said and (Better put it behind you now, better put it behind you now)
Only in your head (Hold on, hold on to)
Time will help you out (Better put it behind you now, you better put it behind you now)
Still you don’t see her (Hold on, hold on to)

You better it put it behind you now
You better it put it behind you now
Too much to hold on, to hold on to
You better do what’s best for you

Crystal Ball

Crystal Ball
Who is the man I see
where I’m supposed to be?
I lost my heart, I buried it too deep
under the iron sea.

Oh, crystal ball, crystal ball,
Save us all, tell me life is beautiful,
Mirror, mirror on the wall.

Lines ever more unclear,
I’m not sure I’m even here,
The more I look the more I think that I’m
starting to disappear.

Oh, crystal ball, crystal ball,
Save us all, tell me life is beautiful,
Mirror, mirror on the wall.
Oh, crystal ball, hear my song,
I’m fading out, everything I know is wrong,
So put me where I belong.

I don’t know where I am,
and I don’t really care,
I look myself in the eye,
there’s no one there.
I fall upon the earth,
I call upon the air,
but all I get is the same old vacant stare.

Oh, crystal ball, crystal ball,
Save us all, tell me life is beautiful,
Mirror, mirror on the wall.
Oh, crystal ball, hear my song,
I’m fading out, everything I know is wrong,
So put me where I belong.

Try Again

i fell asleep on a late night train
i missed my stop and i went round again
why would i want to see you now?
to fix it up, make it up somehow

baby i’ll try again, try again
baby i die every night, every time

what i was isn’t what i am
i’d change back but i don’t know if i can

still i’ll try, try again, try again
baby i die every night, every time

but i was made the way i am
i’m not a stone; i’m just a man
lay down your arms and i will lay down mine
rip back the time that we’ve been wasting

god i wish you could see me now
you’d pick me up and you’d sort me out

still i’ll try, try again, try again
baby i die every night, every time

Broken Toy

I think you know
Because it’s old news
The people you love
Are hard to find
So I think if I
Were in your shoes
I would be kind

I look out for you
Come rain, come shine
What good does it do?
I guess I’m a toy that is broken
I guess we’re just older now

I want to stay
Another season
See summer upon
This sorry land
So don’t dust off your gun
Without a reason
You understand

I look out for you
Come rain, come shine
What good does it do?
I guess I’m a toy that is broken
I guess we’re just older now

Who says the river can’t leave its waters?
Who says you walk in a line?
Who says the city change its borders?
Who says you’re mine?

I look out for you
Come rain, come shine
What good does it do?
I guess I’m a record you’re tired of
I guess we’re just older now
I guess I’m a toy that is broken
I guess we’re just older now

The Frog Prince

An old fairytale told me
The simple heart will be prized again
A toad will be our king
And ugly ogres are heroes

Then you’ll shake
Your fist at the sky
“Oh why did I rely
On fashions and small fry?”

All promises broken
Feed your people or lose your throne
And forfeit your whole kingdom
I’d sooner lose it than still live in it alone

You were our golden child
But the gentle and the mild
Inherit the earth, while

Your prince’s crown
Cracks and falls down
Your castle hollow and cold
You’ve wandered so far
From the person you are
Let go brother, let go
Cos now we all know

Soon, someone will put a spell on you
Perfume, treasure, sorcery, every trick they know
You will lie in a deep sleep
That’s when

Your prince’s crown
Cracks and falls down
Your castle hollow and cold
You’ve wandered so far
From the person you are
Let go brother, let go
Cos now we all know

Makna - (tio)
“Diamkan maka itu hanya adalah sesuatu bukan apa-apa, artikan maka semua adalah memiliki makna di dunia ini…”

Sang Penghibur – (piyu)
“Berlari dan terus berlari, itulah dinamika kehidupan di kota besar. Kapan terakhir kita berhenti sejenak, meresapi apa yang sudah didapat, dan benar-benar menghibur diri…?”

Harmony- (piyu)
“Jika kehidupan adalah lukisan, guratan awal sangatlah menentukan.
Harmoni bukan semata sesuatu yang turun dari langit. Melainkan satu hal yang bisa didesain sejak awal dan harus selalu diperjuangkan.”

Belum Terlambat – (piyu)
“Ada sebagian orang yang kurang beruntung, karena sama sekali tak pernah merasakan tulusnya cinta. Belajar dari sejarah, cinta tak pernah mengenal kata ‘terlambat’.”

Rencana Besar – (piyu-fadly)
“Sesungguhnya bagi setiap manusia sudah ada rancangan agung yang telah digariskan oleh Yang Kuasa. Sehingga Tak ada kata ‘kebetulan’ bagi segala sesuatu yang terjadi di Bumi ini…”

Terluka – (piyu-fadly)
“Melempar kesalahan adalah hal termudah (sekaligus terdangkal) yang bisa dilakukan ketika terjadi sesuatu yang tak diinginkan. Sayangnya justru hal itu yang banyak di praktekan saat ini.”

Jika Engkau Bersedih – (piyu)
“Perasaan khawatir, dan lemah tak bisa dihindari dalam samudera hidup. Mengetahui bahwa ada seseorang yang bisa di ajak berbagi dan saling menguatkan adalah salah satu cara melewatinya.”

Teruslah Bernyanyi
“Tebarkan cinta dan terus bernyanyi…! Tak soal nada apa yang kau pilih. Tak penting bait mana yang kau seru. Ini musik, bukan politik!”

Ode – (fadly)
“Cinta itu tidak akan pernah mati dan sirna. Termasuk saat obyeknya sudah tak lagi ada.”

Jangan datang Malam ini-(piyu-fadly)
“Remember one thing. Shit always happens…”

Aku Bisa Menjadi Kekasih – (piyu)
“Ketika pikiran tak hanya tertuju pada kesalahan, memaafkan sebenarnya bukan hal yang sangat sulit… Teman atau lawan? Musih atau sahabat? Kekasih atau pembenci? Semua hanya permainan benak belaka…”

Seperti hari biasa, hari kamis 6 december mulai jam lima sore aku ngantor (istilah aku di depan kompi jadi op). Endut ( sebutan special ku pada nya ) yang lagi seperti biasa kumat kangen nya dengan diriku tumben OL di YM. Cukup dengan sedikit speak-speak bullshitnya, tujuannya pun terlihat,“kido, ku maen ke sana yak!”, dia berkata. Aku pun mempersilahkan dengan bilang iya-iya saja. Beberapa waktu terlewat, dia pun sudah nongol di kantor. Lama ku tak bersua dengan dia, setelah beberapa bulan ndak saling menyapa wajah, dia tambah gemuk. Cerita demi cerita, gosip demi gosip, tak sedikit yang kami bicarakan malam itu.

Salah satu subjek pembicaraannya adalah Irna, teman baru nya endut yang sudah di kenal selama 1 tahun. Teman dari chating saja katanya, tapi di telpon-telponannya udah kaya temen akrab saja. Iseng, Irna di telp malam itu juga. Mereka ngobrol, dan aku hanya menitip salam kenal saja ke dia. Setelah perngobrolan endut dan Irna, tiba-tiba dengan wajah pucat endut menampakkan dirinya pada ku. Ku tanya kenapa dan dia menjawab klo Irna mo pergi ke Bali. So waht gituh loh… trus knapa.. e e ternyata, Irna mo mampir ke JogJa dlu. Dia minta di jemput di stasiun untuk nantinya di antar ke bandara. Pucat nya endut nular ke aku, aku kena imbas, dia minta aku nemenin dia buat jemputnya coz Irna bawa banyak barang, butuh OB buat bantunya.. T_T bukannya knapa-napa sih, pucat nya aku tuh berarti aku musti ga tidur siangnya buat nemenin dia, padahal besok sore nya ku musti ngantor lagi. Cape deh.

Pulang subuh jam 6 pagi ku nyampe di rumah. Tidur 40 menit, waktu sudah menunjuk jam 7.00 pagi. Endut menelpon aku dan sudah waktunya pergi ke stasiun. Sampai di stasiun dan bertemu dengan the real Irna, selanjutnya pun kita menuju kos nya endut buat bersante-sante dlu. Crita becanda dengan sedikit jayuz. Anaknya lumayan lucu juga. O iya, Irna bawa pelem-apel, hayoo.. udah ada yang penah makan itu belum? katanya itu sejenis mangga yang bentuk nya sama dengan apel, tapi emang sih setelah ku melihatnya. -_-! buah yang aneh, ku baru sekali itu melihatnya. Nyambi packing barang n nanya-nayna ibu kos tempat buat beli bakpia pathok n buah salak, endut keliatan seru banget ma Irna. Mereka mencoba mentali kardus kecil tempat barang n baju, saking serunya talinya pun tak menjadi n akhirnya harus diriku juga yang turun tangan.

After time we are moving to bakpia market in the sebelah barat malioboro. Sekali bertanya kita langusng nyampe di sebuah lorong pojok dan ternyata itu adalah pabrik pusat pembuatan bakpia pathok 25. Turis yang aneh si Irna, ngakunya jarang ke Jogja tp tau tempat tersembunyi seperti itu -_-!, aku saja orang Jogja baru tau… LoL. Dbw, entah nih udah ciri khas Irna ataw emang smua wanita seperti itu, tapi cara menawarnya Irna benar-benar sadis, ampe harganya pun benar-benar jatuh, emba yang jualan pun sampe berbisik biar Irna ga sebut harga nya. Kerenn…Salut…!! Sudah beli pakpia, kita pisahan. Aku pulang buat mandi n mereka lanjut buat shopingnya n makan pagi. Kita ketemuan di boga, tempat makan di deket kampus aku.

Its time. Balik ke kos kita lanjut anter Irna ke bandara. Beuh cape…udah semaleman ga tidur, angkat barang baraan berat punya Irna lagi. After bla bla bla di bandara, antar dia, antar barang dia, kita sempet ngobrol bentar di bandara Adisucipto. Mepet dengan time fur jumatan, dengan berat hati endut pun merelakan kepergiannya. She is gone n thats it fur that day. Sampe jumpa Irna, senang bisa berkenalan dengan mu. Liat saja, aku bakal menagih janji mu, klo aku maen ke Solo, dirimu harus menjadi guide ku di sana… :)

Sampai detik ini…dan mungkin beberapa saat lagi sebelum aku terjatuh di kasur busa aku… Dari hari kemaren, aku telah membuka mata selama lebih kurang 40 jam 34 menit. Catatan waktu terlama aku untuk terjaga selama dalam hidup ku. Hal ini bukan karena mau aku, tapi karena situasi mengharuskan aku untuk tidak tidur… Aku mengantuk… Gud nite.